As my clients are well aware, I'm no astrology expert—I simply share what I learn from the pros. That said, I do believe in the power of planetary positions to guide us forward, heal, and grow.
This past month has been all about letting go of the past decade and embracing the new. For me, it's felt like a death—dramatic, I know, but it truly has been the end of my old timeline and the birth of a new one.
And it's terrifying.
I find myself wrestling with questions like:
What if I can't create this new life?
What if it all falls apart?
What if I have to crawl back to the old version of me?
True to form, the universe, being the cheeky teacher it is, has thrown some tests my way to see how far I've come.
Last month, out of the blue, I got a call from a tech client I hadn't worked with since early 2020, before the world turned upside down. He was asking about an ex-tech partner of mine, someone I'd introduced him to in 2017. We'd worked together for two years, with me earning a nice commission on their deals.
It turns out, my ex-partner had been providing this client with developers for four years without giving me my share. We had a verbal agreement that if this client ever came knocking again, we'd work together. I can hear you now: "Gail, verbal agreements aren't worth the paper they're not written on." Lesson learned, believe me.
So now, the client's fallen out with my unethical ex-partner and came to me for developers. At first, I was excited—extra cash to fund my new writing and coaching ventures sounded great. But something felt off. I couldn't sleep, felt tense and sad; none of it sat right with me.
Obviously, I was devastated that my ex-partner had screwed me on the commission. But I also realised the client wasn't innocent in all this. He's no fool; he knew he was going behind my back. This is why I've grown to hate this industry—it's every man for himself (and I do mean man), with no thought for who they trample along the way.
Despite my misgivings, I started introducing the ex-client to my developer contacts and setting up interviews. But that nagging feeling wouldn't leave. Tossing and turning at night, I finally realised that they never intended to take on my developers. I was just a pawn in their game to scare my ex-partner.
This whole mess has left me terrified about my future—my career, my finances, the lot. I'm doing my best to stay calm and keep building my new reality, it's not easy to keep the faith at 3 am when I am wide awake and sweating.
Looking back, this old client and ex partner was a test—a chance to let go of a world full of fake, underhanded deals and self-serving men. It made me realise the discomfort I'd been living with for years in this industry and helped me see through all the bullshit
I'm still nursing the bitter taste of betrayal from my ex-partner—someone I once trusted with my life. It'll take time to process and accept this.
For now, I'm pushing forward, trying to stay positive, and doing what I need to build the future I want. When fear comes knocking, I sit down with it, maybe over a cup of tea, and remind myself that it's normal to be scared when you're moving into uncharted territory.
I'm wishing all of you the life you dream of.
Gail x
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